[ A JOURNEY BACKWARDS ]
“What makes Button such a curious case is that when he is born in New Orleans just after World War I, he is already in his eighties, and proceeds to live his life aging in reverse. This sweeping film follows the character’s unusual life into the 21st century as he experiences joy and sadness, loves lost and found, and the meaning of timelessness.” ~ RT
All of us remembered the thought provoking yet touching movie of Brad Pitt’s - “The Curious Case of Benjamin Button”. His character’s life aged in reversal, and he was practically growing up backwards. It made us all think that the impossible can be made possible; and adapting it into a beautiful movie made us all awe It stirs up our emotions gracefully.
Tools : Some privacy moment - undisturbed - make sure you are seated; lying down can turn this whole experience into a slumber-land and we do not want that. Some tissue papers if you are the sensitive type (mind you, it’s totally okay to be sensitive - that makes you more you - cherish it love!)
I brought up this movie in today’s practice because I want you to apply the same concept as Mr. Button’s life in yours -I want you to start living your life in reversal. Of course not literally but through visualization. Yes, you are going to spend an hour probably or even more, if you are willing, by re-living your entire life backwards starting from this moment. You do not have to go by hours but rather days or week or months or the pinnacle moments of your life each year. It’ll be like you watching your own life’s movie. You might want to dig the details too at each moment. Each time there’ll a moment that makes your heart beats faster, or cry over the heartbreaks, or even excited when you made that first move - stay a little longer there. Feel the feeling again even while being an onlooker watching your life’s movie.
[ MOVIE OF YOUR LIFE ]
It’ll truly be a remarkable movie - of yours. If you want, you can record them in your journal. If this works for you, you could actually talk to someone of these moments - the movie of your life - but be careful as we do not want to invite any criticisms here from both parties - so choose someone you can trust and someone who is willing to participate as a listener.
You will bring out a lot of emotions and memories during this practice, perhaps some hidden ones. And you would also bring out anger or regrets or resentments - during this time - the latter ones, (THIS IS IMPORTANT), I want you to NOT judge yourself - just be plain ole onlooker. Breathe in and out deeply to calm your senses and remind yourself of your intention here : “You are watching your movie of gratitude” , so try not to dwell more on some emotions you might find too intense and needed some more time for healing and forgiveness (this is entirely a separate process).
The process of reliving your life’s movie should start from your current moment (depending on your life stage) working out backwards to your marriage (or single) life, weddings, youth, friends, teenage years, school-er ending up to your childhood (make is as far and as wide as you can remember). The choice is totally up to you,. After all, you are the director of your movie.
Feel the gratitude of having those cherish-able moments in your life. Dip yourself with a yummy gratitude love each time it makes you smile. Without some of those moments, you wouldn’t be the person you are now. Thank for the life you have chosen and given ; and for everything that are aligned as it should be bringing you to where you are now.
A little trick - do some breathing meditations prior to this practice. Play some tunes. Calm your senses and your thoughts too. Work on it slowly - don’t stress yourself. Remember the beauty of every practice to be impact-ful to your life is when you are willing.